Dear Mom,
I thought i knew you well. I must have been wrong, again. That's no surprise to you though. Right?
Im giving in. I'm not going to fight you over this issue anymore. You want me gone, but all i wanted...was you. It's sometimes hard to believe that we actually fight over this. I'm the one wanting to stay, to have a relationship with you, to help you throught things...and you're the one who wants nothing to do with me. Shouldnt it be the other way around? These are the years that people need the most love and care. Where will you be? ...Off finding "true love" or staying with your children.
Some people say that nothing can amount to the courage and unconditional love of a mother. You have shown me different. I dropped my life in laramie and came to be with you because you would call me up telling me you wanted nothing more to "go to sleep and never wake up." You should have known better, mom. I was in 7th grade. You knew better than to lean on me.
I've never tried harder at anything...as I am now. I'm trying so hard to please you...I don't want to leave...and I dont want you to leave me.
All I've ever wanted from you, is to be my mother. You tell me i ask for to much. Is that too much for you? That's the only thing I've ever asked of you, unless its absolutely necesary. I know you're short on money, but dont use it all and leave nothing for me...I kind of want to be a kid.
I never wanted it to come to this, but I want you to be happy. I'll let you be. I'll never come home....just like you told me not to.
So, I guess this is where i wish you happy trails.
All of my love,
Emily | 